Well, I am on day 5 of my trip to "home." And it is weird. Just strange.
Wednesday I flew into Atlanta- found out if you don't have a connecting flight you go to Terminal F to do passport control and customs and walk out of the airport, even though I flew into Terminal E. Praise the Lord for that. Cut off so much time, even got a ride from a shuttle guy because it is a LONG way to walk. Met up with my long time friend Victoria and picked up Kalli. It was great to see them both. As I told Victoria- she will have a big crown in heaven that she will get to hand to Jesus from all my neediness when I was younger. Good grief, I cringe at how my life was back then. Ended up sleeping terrible- just a lot going on in my head, and Dad picked us up Thursday. I went to my Global Entry appointment and headed to Auburn.
Got to stop by Doggie Momma's (Christi and Wayne) to pick up my clothes i had stored out there and said hey to her for a minute. Then I drug Kalli around Auburn to do various things. I got to spend a little time at Sporty's with the kids before I headed to pick up a Jeep that Brent and Keri are graciously letting me borrow. Had a fabulous dinner with my parents and Kalli then finally at some late night point went to sleep.
Headed to Montgomery for my hair cut, snuck into Grandparents day at Ansley's school (they let me in, but I am not a grandparent…), and had a great lunch with Robert and Margaret. Then met up with my sister Stina and headed to NOLA. My sweet friend Torie came over from New Iberia and we had a great time. Ate seafood, beignets at Cafe DuMonde and stayed up too late. Then killed some time around NOLA saturday morning and went to the Superdome to see Trey Fetner and the University of South Alabama Jags play Tulane. It was great to see him play, and to see him pray for team mates on the sidelines. I love that boy. Such a competitor on the field and a man after God's heart on and off the field.
Yesterday was a great day at church. It was just good. Lunch with my sunday lunch crew, a nap on the couch at my favorite den out in Beauregard and then some more really good church. Then an excellent dinner at the Millers last night.
Then this morning- woke up feeling terrible. And with a general overwhelming anxiety and feeling of fear. Can't explain it. Kind of how I felt some days before I left for Honduras. I don't know if it has been the going through some of my belongings here and being overwhelmed by the volume of stuff I still have left or what. Perhaps it is the uncertainty of what all I have going on this week. Perhaps it is just because even though I am home I don't feel like home. My heart longs to be with my girls- even with all the frustration and struggle that comes with being in Honduras it has become home.
My friend Kalli shared on her blog about a staffer at Emmanuel saying how people at home can't understand how it is at Emmanuel. And in some ways it is true. I can try to explain how it is, but unless you have been there and lived in it, you just can't quite understand. But I guess that is just life in general. I am even unprepared for some questions about Emmanuel- yesterday a friend asked what surprised me the most about Emmanuel and I just couldn't come up with a good answer. It's hard to summarize how life looks and feels now.
But on the good side- I picked up a small book when I was waiting for my driver to pick me up last wednesday Called the Cross Centered Life. So good. Basic yet life giving word. And yesterday at church the sermon was the Cross centered life- discipleship. (you seeing a theme yet?) And I just got a new bible study I ordered. Not on a biblical character. Just God. And the Cross. Good stuff.
Woke up this morning to Daddy washing and waxing the Jeep that Keri and Brent loaned me for the week. That's just how he is. Such a servant. I don't deserve the grace and mercy and patience that I recieve from him. And his wife. Better to me than I ever deserve.
It HAS been good to spend time with villagers here. I miss seeing you and your kids and just being in the middle of everything. It's been great to watch Kalli's journey through the week as well. It's just so sweet to see how God is sorting out details for her day by day. God's plan is always best and perfect and I just love to see Him work! Please join me in praying for her as she interviews and hopefully gets a job this week.
I have a village gathering. If you haven't gotten my email and are interested please let me know so I can get info to you. Would LOVE to see your face this week before I go back on Saturday.
I blew up Twitter this weekend in NOLA. But have taken very few photos since. Will try to post some before I go back this weekend.
Be His.
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