Available…for His glory.

Today has been a beautiful collision. This morning in church the visiting team’s leader spoke. He spoke about King David and beautifully tied what he shared in the old testament in with New Testament scripture. My favorite thing besides the scripture when he said “If the Holy Spirit was to pass through here he would ask one thing “Do I have your heart?” I know he meant that in salvation but he also touched on the everyday ways he wants our heart. And he quoted my favorite scripture Psalm 84:10 I would rather stand in the door of the room of The Lord than dwell among the wicked. For better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere.
And as he spoke about David and how David bought the threshing floor and paid later for more of the land I couldn’t help but think “what sacrifice is enough?” Because it is God in his nature and the Holy Spirit’s work to continually ask for more. We will never be in a place where we won’t have something that He requires of us. A sin, a possession, and idol of some sort. More of our heart. Our desires. Our being. Everyday to be more of him and less of me. My joy to sacrifice those things I thought so important to him to become more like him.
Then tonight I picked up the next Brookhills sermon in their series I have been doing. Tonights sermon was on Christian Singleness. And as much as it encouraged my heart it brings me yet again to a place of surrender. In case you didn’t know I’m single. Have been for 39 years now. And I have honestly gotten to a place I don’t pray about it much. I would LIKE to be married. But I don’t pray about it a lot because then I will start thinking about it and looking and hoping and being distracted. And The Lord and I have had many a long talk about how if I am to get married I would like that relationship to develop and me being lead on that is not the way. So I’ve chosen to let The Lord and my prayer partners handle that.
And hearing Jim preach about it makes my heart happy to know that if I remain single I am blessed. Despite what the world and even the church often says. And if I get married I will be blessed in that. But for now I once again put my heart in regards to my singleness at his feet. It’s not something I can carry and or arrange or “fix” so I happily carry on as is and leave that with Him until he hands it back to me.
And as I finished the sermon I began to listen to a new song I downloaded today. And it simply says “Christ is my reward…. I’ve been set free. Christ is enough for me. Everything I need is in you…. Heaven is our home.” Yes. For the things in my heart that feel broken. For the future. For today. For my girls down the hill in their houses. For (insert thing here) For the longing in my heart for A. B. C……
He Is Enough.
Enough.
Thankful for the collision of truth today in my heart.
Be His.