Ok. So for the five of you still reading this blog my deepest apologies. It seems that I just decided for all of our sakes just to keep it to myself and not post. Well, not really. Sorta. Just seems that I had a lot of negative things to say and I didn't want you to just see the bad. I have to temper it with the good. The real. And honestly for awhile I think my thyroid was in the pit of despair and it took me with it. Drugs and regulation of them correctly is a wonderful thing.
Now, on to the Facebook issue. I have been reading a book called Embracing Obscurity and started a bible study called "Chase" One came slightly before the other but both have made me think about why I do some of the things I do. Some of the things I think. What I really chase after. Seek. And I decided finally last Friday night that I was done with Facebook. Nothing inherently wrong with it. But I found myself too worried about what someone would think or say when I posted something. Or wishing I could post something but couldn't. And life is too short for that.
I long for community. Connection. Face time. Not Facebook. You want to talk to me, call me. Text me. Email me. Invite me over for dinner. A movie. A walk at the mall. A cupcake. Coffee (tea) Shout out to someone who actually did this last weekend. God timing indeed. I want to be real. Not what we have decided is real. I want to hear truth, hug your neck, fellowship with you. Not feel like I am peering into your window and sometimes wishing I was there. Or longing for things that just aren't mine. I love the people in my world and some of you who may be coming into it. I just want to live life together and not through a computer necessarily. Especially if you live in my hood. Sadly for some of my distant friends I have to deal with computer living and phone calls. :)
Please dont read that as bitter or angry. I just realized for now I just need to take a break. Spend time in what life looked like before Facebook. Back when I would call or text or say hey in real life. Show you pictures or stories and laugh together, not wait for a response through cyberspace.
I just wanted to remind myself that I can do without it. I miss "seeing" yall. But it has been amazing how much I have gotten done when I am not just sitting bored absentmindedly flipping back to my newsfeed. And it's only been 6 days.
I will keep the blog. I feel I can share my heart better than a brief sometihng on facebook and worry that maybe I should have explained something I have said there. I know I have missed yall. And for those of you who have mentioned my absence…I am sorry. I am coming back. Promise. And hopefully some good news about my future in the next week. Please Lord I hope so.
Meanwhile I am on twitter- @eugena8410 And I will turn my facebook back on for you guys. But please let me know if there is something you want me to know because I won't actually be checking it right now. I just know my limitations right now.
Love ya'll. Thanks for stickign around. If you don't have google reader to keep up with your blogs I highly suggest it. It will simplify your blog keeping up with folks situation.
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